Tuesday, July 22, 2014

A Different Perception

Well, it's been a few days since I've written - and honestly, it's because I have been gone/busy all weekend.  On Friday, I actually did get up to go to a 7:30 bootcamp, and then I got home and went for my 1.5 mile run.  I ran it 3 minutes faster than I did on Monday.  I was ecstatic, however my Nike+ app didn't want to sync.  It hasn't been syncing for awhile, which is aggravating.

Anyhow, the wedding was absolutely beautiful.  I thought I did fairly well in terms of eating/drinking at the wedding (it helps when I drive everywhere).  I only had two glasses of wine - and anyone that has been to an open bar wedding knows just how incredibly hard this can be.  It was buffet options for food.  So, I decided to stick with a large cesar salad, very little of the grilled veggies because they looked as tho they were soaked in butter, and two pieces of tri-tip.  I have a pretty big dairy issue, so it was easy to say no to the chicken smothered in a cream sauce.  I had a great night dancing the night away, even got those 10,000 steps in!

As for Saturday, this was a bit rougher.  We went wine-tasting in Napa, which is always a wonderful time.  We did a cave tour at Del Dotto Winery, and once again, I offered to be the driver so I wouldn't be tempted to drink.  I just feel they are unnecessary calories at this point.  I took my apple, almonds, and turkey jerky with me, just in case I needed some snacks (which I did).  I felt that it was proper planning, and not something I would have done a month ago.  Hell, skipping the drinks isn't something I would have done a month ago.  We had a great dinner, I order a BLT on wheat bread with an egg, and a side of Brussel sprouts.  Did I mention how much I love brussel sprouts?? Haha!  I had a pastry from my favorite bakery there, Model Bakery, highly recommend it!

Sunday was a bit better, had a good breakfast in the morning, had a salad from Plutos while we were out and about, and then the rest of my BLT for dinner.

On Monday, I got up, went to bootcamp at 5:30 AM at F.A.T. and then went to work.  I'm trying to work out my schedule to make sure it will all work out.  I wanted to run last night, but just couldn't get motivated.  I need to have a recording of Sue of John yelling at me to get off the couch and get moving.  Maybe that would help.

This morning, I said I was going to try and do my cardio in the morning, since I have a soccer game tonight.  This was to see which one I would actually feel better doing in the morning.  Yah, I'm sticking to bootcamp, I didn't get out of bed to run.  FAIL.  So, I'm going to go to boot camp this afternoon - and then soccer tonight.  I honestly feel so guilty for my laziness the past couple of days.  I know my food hasn't been far off - just the exercise.  I have to find the motivation somewhere.

When I don't exercise, I automatically just look at myself differently.  I see a different person when i look in the mirror.  I see all the bumps, curves, and issues I don't want to see.  However, when I exercise I see my strength, I see definition (even if it might not be there), and I see hope.  I don't like the feeling of failure or what I perceive myself to be.  It's definitely something I need to focus on.  Later tonight I will be doing a blog just regarding my goals I would like to accomplish.  Hopefuly, that will be a motivating factor.  

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